Safe

• Posted by The Rt. Rev. Mark Luljak April 12, 2011 - #  - 860 views

  Safe (Cell of the Mind)
  
  Assault on my senses,
  and yet it's me who's caged
  as the life I've been living
  grinds to a halt
  Withdrawn to a tiny room,
  slim moonlight through the windows
  barred to keep you safe
  or is it me?
  It's me, I'm fairly sure,
  as I've noticed that the lock
  clearly bolts from the inside
  my sole control...
  
  And I can't leave my hidden shelter,
  the corner of my mind,
  the place where no one touches me,
  this fortress, my retreat
  As I contemplate my feelings,
  and rearrange my mind,
  in this place where no one harms me,
  and I don't concede defeat
  
  Because I'm safe
  (I'm where I need to be)
  And I'll stay safe
  (that's how I need to feel)
  I need to be safe
  (don't need more than that now)
  Give me respite, keep me safe
  (until I can face another day)
  
  I rest in this shelter,
  the ticking clock just stops
  The thoughts I've been thinking
  leave my mind locked
  Too much to absorb at once,
  maybe even given days
  Hard to take it in,
  deep inside me
  Inside, where my heart lives
  where I process all I feel
  This factory of thought
  so uncontrolled...
  
  And I can't leave these thoughts unheaded,
  the things that brought me here,
  though every one that touches me
  brings trepidation near,
  As I marshall my resources,
  and fortify my mind
  Replenishing for battles past,
  prepare for those to come
  
  But for now, I'm safe
  (I need myself to find me)
  God keep me safe
  (please give me time to heal)
  And I'll stay safe
  (against the roaring onslaught)
  Nothing less than safe
  (until I can face another day)
  
  One day I'll unlock the door,
  step outside myself again
  Pick up the pieces,
  reassemble all the things
  I left behind
  But that day is not today,
  facing that is surely trouble
  until I'm feeling
  like I can handle everything
  with balanced grace
  
  But for now,
  just for now,
  Heaven keep me safe
  in Light