I've never done things the traditional way. I have experienced things that would land most people in a mental hospital, and often keep my experiences to myself for the very reason that most people would not understand and think I was completely nuts.
I have walked in between the veils since childhood. As a child is was just natural. It wasn't something I thought about or could even explain, it simply.. was. Now that I am older I have an ever greater understanding of this, but that knowledge has come at a great price, belief. Now that the logical mind is aware of the spiritual nature of things, it often creates chaos and disbelief. It causes doubt as I try to logically comprehend something that isn't meant to be understood. I have been trying to swim upstream instead of simply allowing the waters of life to flow naturally. When I wasn't aware, the energy just flowed. Now that I try to make things logical in my head, none of it makes sense, and then I no longer seek knowledge, I seek affirmation for the things I once knew to be true and now disbelief, or at least walk sceptically upon.
I found this picture that I have on my desktop background. I will try to pst it at the end of this blog. But the rushing waters in this sacred place, I can't help but to feel the energy flowing through this place. Logically, I would be nuts to think that such a place would even exsist, it's just a picture after all, the results of another person's creation. But I was so drawn to it. I could hear my Angels speak to me, telling me to close my eyes and to place myself as if I was standing in front of it. So I did. The water was so blue, so peaceful and so calm. I could feel the gentle breeze across my face and the air so pure. I invisioned my husband next to me. He wasn't in physical form, but in spirit, like a ball of light that moved into my arms. So I let go of all of the logical and followed the flow of Spirit. We step waiste high into the water. We dipped into the water, intentionally realising the things that burdened him. I didn't second guess, I didn't doubt, I just knew. I continued to dip him in 7 times. Im my arms I raised him to the heavens and a beam of light came down and surrounded him. When we were done, we walked back up the stairs. Again he stood next to me, but this time in physical form. Again, we went into the water, repeating everything from before. This time the intention was set for more physical healing or at least a decerase in pain. When we were done, he stood up high next to me and he walked up the stairs once again. We walked through the veil and back to here.
When I came back from my meditative state, he got out of bed and had no pain. His thoughts were cleared and his emotional state was so much better. He had hope again. I had no illusions that this would last forever, but it was meant to help him out while we are going through all of this, a temporary relief. After that, it's up to the Divine. So a few days ago, my oldest child was feeling low. I can always tell, the remarks, the looks and especially, "leave me alone" and isolation that usually lasts a couple of days. I often worry as she has a history of attempted suicides. So once again I opened the vel and entered into the healing pools. This time taking her with me. We went into the waters and I invisioned the waters cleansing her from the energy that brought her down. I asked that whatever she needed would be restored. We spent quite a bit of time there. When the light shone all around I knew her healing was complete. We ascended to stairs and again through the veil. The next morning, she was her again. She was happy and peaceful, she seemed to enjoy life again and that light still shone around her.
I revisted this place again last night, this time bringing all of my family, including the pets. There has been a little tension between the animals lately as well as between my kids. Again, I opened the veil, and again we descendned into the healing waters. The peace that overcomes in completely undescribable. Today, there was hardly any bickering between the kids, they have gotten along all day long. The animals, at least two of them , out kitten skittles and our dog buddy snuggled up together on the floor. My husband felt better physically and mentally. I did an extra hand's on healing and it instantly brought his pain down from a 9 to a 5.
I call this place the pools of Avalon.The holy place of Divine light and essance. I'm beginning to understand the differance between the mind and the spirit and , how when used together as a whole, can create miracles. I have always seen this, but somehow I have lost my belief in it. I see it now though. I see it all so clearly. The way's of Spirit isn't the way's of man, or at least isn't the ways of logic, at least not for me. For some this may be so, but I am meant to learn and discover My path. It's kind of funny how many times I have come full circle just to find out that what I was seeking, i already knew,lol. What I am also beginning to realize is that each time I walk full circle and start out at the beginning all over again, I am stronger for I have learned. I've learned not just how, but now I know why and to me, knowing why is power. It gives me more stregnth because now I see the purpose in these things. I see the results of what I am called to do and that it is not in vain.
It's funny because I always thought I was to much in the spirit and not grounded enough on the earth. I always knew somehow that I needed to find balance between the two. What i have found out is actually the opposite. I am to grounded to this earth and that which I can see that I have somehow left behind the spririt, therefore leaving faith behind. I now know why. I only knew a darker spiritual realm. It wasn't by choice, it was part of my purpose. I understand why I had to go so deep and so dark, because in the depths of hell, lies the key to heaven, the pools of Avalon.
