Question: What can I do to fix this?
Answer: Nothing, there is nothing to fix. Embrace the change. Another chapter of your life is closing and a new one opening.
Me- But I don't want it to close. I have more chapters in my life then an encylclopedia has topics. I ask for stability for my family, and we get stability with no money. I ask for money and it still doesn't cover everything. same cycle, same situation, just a different time with different people. With all the premonitions and predictions I have seen, I never saw this coming, I've seen indivdual situatons and took it one situation at a time, but as a whole, I never saw the theme. People say we choose this, I have a hard time beleiving this. I wrote a blog on my blog about this same thing.
Spirit- Have you looked at the whole theme?
Me- yes, I have seen myself in spirit. She told me to let go of regret, I saw what i would become and decided to let go of past regret, yet I'm not sure how to change that, because the theme is continious, it never changes. I have given my life to you and in a sence I can't help but to wonder if I lost it. i've been called to walk a spiritul path filled with many spiritual blessings, but at what price? I won't compromise my integrity, no matter what the price, is that selfish of me? I compromise that and I loose my soul. But it doesn't put food on the table, so I loose my livelihood or I loose my soul. It hardly seems like a fair choice. If it were, to be honest, I could care less, I'd risk sleeping on a stret corner, but you have entrusted a family to me, you have entrusted others to me, and i'm failing miserbly.
Spirit- Then you are missing the point.
Me- Then what is the point?
Spirit- The point is not whether you can, it's whether you will. You don't understand the point of the premonitions, but this is the point. Whether it is meant to be changed or not, you always try, in this you never fail.
Me-But how does this help us?
Spirit- It is why you are a family of survivors. It is your stregnth, a stregnth that many depend upon. You may have been treading water, but you have never drowned, your head always above water. Your soul desire is to serve, but you would not be able to serve in a master's chair.
Me- My life theme, the psychic, the magic, the spirits, the empathy, stregnth, courage, passion, it's like taking the vow of poverty. So am I destined like this for the rest of my life?
Spirit- If you were given a choice, would you choose to sacrifice what you do have for material possessions? Think about this carefully.
Me- No. There is no choice, I can't turn my back and walk away even at the expence of myself. It's not within me to do so.
Spirit- So you know now what you lost? Or feel that you lost?
Me- appreciation.
Spirit- Remember the things that feed the soul. Manifest what is within the heart, not what is in your mind.
Listen to your husband, he holds the key to what you seek.
Me- I'll be doing that tonight. I know I need to go deeper.
Spirit- But will you? Are you willing to take that journey?
Me- i am, but not for me, for them.
Spirit- Then you are almost there.
Me- I can't change this can I? This situation?
Spirit- Acceptance is also part of the path. But I will show you something may help lighten the burden.
Me- The other vision, from a couple of years ago, we're being placed in a position to handle something that is still to come.
Spirit- Are you beginning to understand now?
Me- The theme....lol, I guess a phone call doesn't have the same effect for some situations. i understand and it does help. The road ahead is going to be a rough road for many but I'm now understanding the importance of doing what I need to do and what will need to be done and prepared for.
Thank you for your wisdom.