My Fellow Reveremds, I am writing this blog about my faith and trust in others as well as in god and the tests satan is trying to do to win so I can loose. It goes like this I started looking for find someone to raise a family with and god and I spoke I put my faith in him but my heart is broken not because of him but because of satans scam games to send girls to me from dating sites and so forth to part me with my money and to lie and cheat and steal for there own gain. I been checking on them and when I get a new friends request on face book I check why? Because I don’t want to be burned. face book and I have been working together to remove spammers,con people, shysters,bamboozelers and ect from there site. What keeps me going is my faith in god to have him show me someone who will except me and help me raise a family. Until then its my job to remove the people from face book who plays mind games and breaks peoples hearts for only there money. People like that are doing satans bidding. Now why did I decdide to weite this to share with you my thoughts and experiences into a blog without making a video blog discussing it. So what heeps my faith going is many reasons protecting face bookers, making you tube vids and playing video games and reading keeps me going when I feel down I pray to god or I watch movies. I decided I am tired of scammers of social sites so I decided to take a break from face book only to check my messages and when I get a message its usually from a scammer so I decided whats the point and report it. Now my break from face book is I am tired of all the scammers as well as I need to regroup. Life is to short to spend it all the time on face book and then using my psp to check face book and messages I should be out doing other stuff so that’s why I decided to take a break. Im also getting tired of all the negative messages I get calling me all types of names when it comes to me being transsexual si need to meditate and think on all stuff and then come back as a better person. My heart cannot be broken any more as im tired of all the games on the site. Mind games scammers plays then I stay up 20 plus hours thinking I found the right one and neglect myself at times. I want to be normal as possible witch means sleeping when I am tired and not forcing myself up thinking this person is the right one. Now brings me to my faith I put my faith in to many people even scammers thinking there real then my best bug aaron checks on it and says nope scammer and handles it and then the cycle starts over. It seems I put my faith in scammers they put faith in me to part my money to them and when they don’t get it they run away, shows me they think I am a wasy target by lieing and saying they want to start a family with me and of course they want to tell me they want to marry me and then my hopes and faith get broken and then I get depressed and so forth. Like I put my faith and hope into a friend on face book who removed me as a friend and he was on yahoo he asked for 3 pics of my face to show his friend who works in a baby clinic in India and when he saw my pics he removed me from my friends list and that depressed me too. I need not to trust people easily or put my faith or hope on them for me and then I will be a better person and I wont get hurt by trusting them or hope or faith so easily. So now you know why I am depressed easily as my faith and hope is broken because of my arrogance of putting trust into others. As well as faith and hope. I need to be stronger and let god lead me and when its time it will be time just like ecclesiastics 3 there is a time for everything I just need to be patience and patience only as then I don’t put faith in people from dating sites or marriage agencys and I will do well. So I will not misplace my trust, faith or hope any longer for people on these sites ie dating sites and marriage agencys and I will put my trust in god to show me the way and in the mean time I will make the best of my life with movies, music,books,video games and my internet to pass the time till I am shown gods will and then it will all fall into place like dominos. Also to keep my faith going I will post blogs more often as I been asked to post text blogs but I usually do my daily life blogs on xanga and it use to be myspace but I got tired of myspace and go there for just the music I saved to listen too. I use to do video blogs on life but not many watched them however when I make a video blog on issues its mostly experiences or vents about things I have happened tro me or experiences I have seen or heard or happened too me. So like I said what keeps me going is god and other hobbys till I find the right person if I find the right person and I don’t like negative people or people who remove me as friends on face book or myspace for various reasons. I had 1 friend who could have been a soul mate but she was leading me by the nose and not answering my questions then she banned me from myspace because of it. Took me 6 months to get over her. My weakness is cute girls. I have more weaknesses but that’s all I want to say. Girls with beautiful faces is also my weakness. Lol but anyways what keeps me going hope,faith and trust wise. I need to regroup and think of how I don’t need to trust these scammers when they offer me help with family then I wont have a broken heart all the time. I hope my mother who died a month ago can guide me as well as my father who died in 1990. So before I go I wanted to say I wont trust anyone who is on a dating site,marriage agency or ect who offers me family from certain social groups then I can regroup better myself and not let my heart and soul damage my faith,hope and trust of others then its hard to rebuild it. So there is my blog on these issues I wont try to post another one unless something comes to my head like this one. ~Reverend Ritalee