I wonder if anyone could truly understand me. I know from experience that very few tolerate, let alone accept me. You see, I come from an extremely diverse lineage, that no one could ever comprehend. I have a great-something grandpappy, Thomas Guthrie Moore, who was part of the American Revolution! He was labeled a traitor because his grandpappy had come to the Americas from England. Frank Busskohl, another of my grandpappys, came to the Americas from Germany after he shot his brother. (If wasn’t grandpappy’s fault that his brother was sleeping with his wife!!) And I remember the stories my grandmammy used to tell me about my granddaddy’s uncle, Sitting Bull, and all the hell he lived through during his lifetime. My grandmammy, Mary Tavelli (married name), well she was deaf in one ear and HER family, I’m told, came from Ireland. The doctors said it was her gene that my own daughter got, which is why SHE is deaf. No wonder she couldn’t amount to much……can’t do much when you’re deaf, right? And another grandmammy, Irene Bollinger, her momma came from Germany, and didn’t speak much English, so of course SHE couldn’t go very far in school (she only got her bachelor’s degree). And my dad…well, he had to join the Air Force because the Army was drafting him and he wanted to fly. He got stuck in there and finally got out after 23 years! Another uncle (I am told from a marriage), Neil Armstrong, walked on another piece of land, his head (the family kept saying in murmured voices) was always in the sky. I think I saw him once at a family reunion when I was a wee one. My dad, before he got sick, worked many years collecting our family genealogy. I remember him saying once that finding similar fault in our ancestors somehow absolves us of our responsibility…..okay maybe that was ME saying that to him. Yet, we had a pretty messed up lineage. Traitors, murder, adulterer, Irish, German, Indian, English, even had some with disabilities!!! No wonder you all can NEVER understand me. I will forever be a victim in this life, always beat down, merely because of my heritage.
